I've been in love with this guy for so long. He was the one I always believed I'd end up with; I was convinced that no matter how many times either of us screwed things up, we'd eventually come back to each other.But I learned he was running to me because he was running away from someone else — someone that he now loves.
Today he called me, as usual sharing story and try to get my advice. But, today he called me and told me he loves someone else. He ask my opinion, how to win her and how to fight for her. Suddenly, i feel lost.I distinctly remember the exact moment when I realized that our love would live forever in the past. I was at a loss for words.I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to think. I didn't know how to stand. I didn’t know if I should keep my voice loud or silent.I couldn't spend another second talking to him, because I knew I was about to break down. My love isn't just about the emotions i'm feeling. It's about what this person means to me.It’s about the place he has in my life as well as my heart. When i realize that your loved one is in love with someone else, i can see that the life i thought i’d have is no longer possible.
A part of me dies.I wish I could tell you which part that is, but I haven't yet been able to pin it down. But i know i'm a different person than i am an hour ago.My heart shattered. My tears fall down from my face. I couldn't help it, it break me apart.What should I do to protect myself from being hurt, because I don't want to lose you, and I can't tell you?
Not all of your hopes and dreams are going to come true, and when one of them dies in front of your eyes, it hurts more than you could possibly imagine. And if that dream is a future with someone you love, your world will be turned upside down. Seeing the person you love fall in love with someone else can kill you. I know because it almost killed me.. Now, i can't think. I need to get myself a cakes. And a shoulder to cry on.
To you (who-know-who-you-are) : I'm sorry to fall for you. I'm sorry to expect more than i should. I wish you all happiness, life may offers. Time will heal me. So, don't you worry about me. i will be fine, someday. Goodbye and i'm gonna miss you and i will love you, always!
