Second Chance?

Yes and No. Huhuhu.. Oh, we all have that.Just reality dictates that you can't so you sometimes dream a little. Fantasy won't hurt anybody i guess. So here is who i wanna meet again and who i don't.

A big yes to my crush, someone who i adore so much. How i wish i could turn back times and treat him good so that he won't leave me. I know he loves me but i tak pernah menghargai dia. Yup, i never appreciate him until he's gone. Our relationship is like a roller coaster ride that time. But i do loves him. And he didn't know that. I still remember all of our conversations, memories taht we shared, and the phone call when he's out of town for work. We're separated by thousand miles and i didn't make the relationship spark at all. I am 24 that time. Both of us. If I had the chance to go back and meet him for the first time again, I would put extra effort in keeping him.  I want to get to know him all over again or make up for the things i have done wrong. I want to display the best side of me. And now, he's married with 2 kids already.

A yes to the day i met Era. I would told her not to call me "Kak". So that she won't. But now we are used to it. So i don't mind. It's not that i don't like to be called that way, but she is one of the biggest influences people in my life. A lot of her friends, become mine too. And when she called me kak, the whole bunch of the group will call me the same.She will also introduce me with "Kak Zett". Even some of them are only 1-2 years younger than me. I don't wanna sound that old. And that's odd. Hahahah..

Yes to the day i met Dato Seri Vida. I met her on Makan Malam Sempena Hari Wanita Peringkat Kebangsaan 2015. I should've ask her, her email address. So that i can send my resume. Hahaha. She's my idol now. An example of a strong and successful woman i would like to be one day. InsyaAllah.

A yes to my ex, MABP. My ex when i'm 22 years old.  I would have turned around and run as fast as I could. I've regret to know him. He caused a lot of problem which i can still feel the pain until now. Like using my name for loans, which he dissapear and i have to pay. To sell my car without proper agreement so that the car is still on my name and i have to pay for 7 years even i'm not using it. I really hate him and i don't wanna see his face anymore. Don't you dare to show your face to me.

So many people will leave scars in your heart. And there will be the one who will always put a smile whenever you're thinking of them right? Sometimes things just get out of hand. I just wanna go back and meet all of the person all over again and so i can wipe the old slate clean and start all over again. And this time make it better.  I wish we really do have time machine... but I guess that's not going to happen. Hahaha. So let's do our best today and forget what happen! Oops.. I mean learn from it too!